We all have the choice of whether or not to embrace love. I believe that love can change the world. You never know how just extending a smile and saying hello can help someone who may be going through a rough time. To be completely honest this journey isn’t an easy one it is a conscience choice every moment. I constantly find mysef fighting back tears I have no right to cry I have been blessed with friends, a roof over my head, food to eat so then why I am I so sad? I have no right to be…. It is ok to cry and feel. I have a friend who helped me see that I haven’t allowed myself to feel for who knows how long. The biggest things that I have been feeling jealousy, a feeling that I am not worth the time. Now I I know you are thinking that is absolutely untrue. I agree I know that I am worthy. When I am content with all of my present circumstances then the guy and relationship that I want will happen. Truth— I am learning that I like to be around people but I can’t be around too many before I feel like I need to isolate myself. True definition of an introvert. I get refreshed by being able to just chill by myself. So how do I change enough to be around the extroverts that I seem to be drawn to? The answer is be comfortable enough to be myself that I way I don’t feel like I need to run away. Another thing is to discuss it with whoever I am hanging out with so that they don’t just feel like I am abandoning them which I am certainly not doing.
I also have to remind myself on a daily basis— Keep your chin up! Smile! Happiness is a choice! Things will work out exactly as they are supposed to. I will continue to show everyone that questions me and my vision for my future that I am doing well and that I will be successful.
I will be open to love. Right now there are certain relationships that I am maintaining as friends. I will continue to grow and better myself so that they can see a difference in me. In the right timing it will all come together. I want to be a good friend to those that I meet it truly hurts me when I cant help them. I just need to remember to take care of myself. If I am full of love I can extend it to the others. If I am burnt out then I can’t extend love to others. I think that is the biggest mission for my life. I will love! I will go outside my box and comfort level and extend a smile and say hello. I will be ok with meeting new people. I have met a few new friends and it is all good.
I will not take other peoples assumptions to heart. I will keep moving forward.